June 30, 2004
so what do i do with a highly contagious tim? ... i go visit him. it was good to see he isn't dead though. that was a relief. but hopefully i won't get sick again. i reckon it's like the chicken pox - you can't get the same thing twice... or at least it's a real small chance. and probably heaps worse second time around, but ssshh!
so sleepy. time for another early night. how delightful. at least being sick gives you a good excuse to take time off work and to sleep lots. one, or is it two positives!
this week and the next are a bit of a schamozzle me thinks.
so now tim's been up all night last night with "highly contagious" gastroenteritis (spell check!), and i asked deb to drive him to the medical centre this morning. and if debbie gets it, i'm dead! i very hope she doesn't. and i very hope tim gets better soon. all these poor people with silly tummys. it sucks!
meanwhile, howie and i were back at work for a while today. that was ok. i got to play with phoebe a fair bit. which was fun. she was super smiley today. the bet is that tomorrow, when i'm actually meant to be looking after her, she'll be all grumbly bum. oh well, thems the breaks.
June 29, 2004
9 year record down the toilet
i threw up a bit yesterday. i hadn't thrown up since i was in year 9. that was 9 years ago.
howie came to work yesterday morning. i asked him how he was. he said not too good. he's already thrown up once and had the poos twice. i asked why on earth he was in the office. "there's work to do". i told him to go home. he turned on his computer, sat there for a minute and then went and threw up in the toilet. i told him to go home. he did. i was feeling a little queasy - i thought it was just hypocondria. so i went about my usual work stuff. i got to the cafe in the arvo and felt decidedly seedy. but i battled on til about 5pm, when i went back to the office to lie down. after a bit i called my mum to pick me up. as soon as i walked in the front door at home, the urge to throw up was there. i went straight to the toilet - and there was the 75c scone i'd ate for lunch. vomiting is gross. luckily i only did a couple times over the night. i hear howie is much worse. but i'm sad coz i broke my awesome record. so there was then the worst night sleep ever... but i'm feeling ok now. just really tired, feverish, and headachy.
June 28, 2004
james is moving back to WA for 6 months. that is mega sad. he's been diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue, and so has been advised to take that time off college to rest and recover. but it's sad coz that means he's away for six whole months! he's heaps frustrated and annoyed by it, because of all the stuff he's into here, especially ministry-wise. and i reckon poor luke and him will miss each other terribly! not to mention debs and lyndy and all everyone really. james is tops. i'm sure six months will fly by. hey, that means that in about 6 months, jake, james and david will all be coming back. wow, how exciting.
June 27, 2004
current dilemma
should i get my nose pierced?
not a good thing that that is the 'dilemma' in my life...
"A situation that requires a choice between options that are or seem equally unfavorable or mutually exclusive"
June 26, 2004
how good is it connecting and sharing with people about real important stuff. i love it. it's hard sometimes. but it's good. today was state team day, and it was a lot of fun with howie, steve and others. but near the end we spent an hour in small groups sharing about what our work has meant to us. it was really special time. i love the people i work with, whether i see them every day, or only every few months. it's exciting to have people around that are going through the same stuff, and who are so passionate about God, about people knowing Jesus, and about making a difference in this world. so many beautiful and inspiring people. and it's always good to have a laugh and muck around with people. brings many smiles to my face, and loud laughs from my mouth!
June 25, 2004
mobile phones
tim's got/getting a mobile. this is:
(a) exciting (coz finally!!)
(b) scary (coz of potential money "waste-age")
(c) a relief (coz now he's contactable)
(d) funny (coz tim and a phone... hehe... no offence tim)
i swear - it'll be for emergencies only!! (isn't that what we all say!)
it's amazing how many young people have some education in who God is. i guess coz of christian ed or whatever. but i'm amazed at the number of young people i meet that have some sort of youth group contact. it's crazy - in an exciting way!! so many seeds sown, and so much potential. we went to Berowra today for Asquith Girls Yr 10 Christian Studies day. Jo Kemp is good value (hi Jo!). but it was interesting to see how many of the girls (at least in our small group) had been to youth group at least once. so many of our cafe young people have too. when i was at high school, no one in my immediate or wider group of friends had ever been to a youth group. and we were at a "Christian" (maybe religious is a better term) school. all these young people just needing to make that connection within their heart that makes it real. to actually take the step to accept Jesus and make Him Lord & Saviour.
imagine being able to just sleep. totally uninterrupted. until no specified time. just sleep. mmmmmmmm....
June 24, 2004
i was browsing through tom's archives for something to do, and some of his stories made me laugh out loud - for example. what a classic. hehe.
how good are days that are good. i say good indeed! today has involved work (as always). hoorah for newsletter finally! mumma came and worked at the office too. fun with steve. and then lunch with timbo. some fun msn convos. home time. then tonight timmy over for dinner.
it's a nice positive day. good weather. smiley people. fruit salad. pepsi max. "deal or no deal". paul colman trio. john butler trio. fun emails. new scarf. comfie socks. goodo.
my hair smells like sandalwood oil. hmmm.. strange. tim thinks it smells like pepper. it's definitely sandalwood. but why?
i'm not sure i'm a fan of walking into my house and finding random people inside. i got home just now, walked up the stairs and in the door to find mum playing the piano, with libby and three randoms singing. very strange. i went straight for my room. nice and safe. then i was good and went out and said hi. good jenny.
June 23, 2004
so cute
how cute are grandparents that still hold hands! hehe. i came home from bible study tonight, and there are my g'parents sitting on the couch watching Blue Heelers, holding hands. hehe. i'm sure that's all they do!
day off
i hate that days off feel so unproductive and boring and la-di-da. i want days off to be exciting, and relaxing, and refreshing. but noooooooo. mre.
i was thinking last night, i really need to get some girlfriends. most of my close friends are boys. not that that's necessarily a bad thing, and it's just always been that way, but i don't have a core group of chicks to hang out and be girly with. besides my year 12 girls - not that we are girly at all. then again, i don't really want to hang out and be girly with anyone. hmmm... so maybe it's not a dilemma after all. maybe it's just that the world says you've got to have girly time if you're a girl. i don't really want girly time. so maybe it's fine having mostly guys as friends. midunno.
June 22, 2004
just had dinner with jem. i miss jem. was good to hang out and catch up and laugh. he gets so distracted so easily - it's funny. but it was good to chat about seriousness too. i hope we get to see each other a little more often. hoorah for jeremy! and hoorah for nice dinner... i like chicken (i sound like sam!)
apple day
so far today i've had two apple juice poppas and four apples. will that keep the doctor away for extra longer?
June 21, 2004
a day of firsts...
1. my first trailer experience - lesson: ropes give rope burn
2. my first massage - lesson: physio is better, but it was still worth it
3. my first air into tyres experience - lesson: don't be such a wuss bag coz things are more often than not easy peasy - thank you to Ryan, Jem and Anmol for giving me the confidence to do it all myself!
4. my first falling off my chair at work - lesson: don't trust howie near my chair
5. my first falling into a total heap on the floor in laughter at howie (actually i don't think it's a first, but i think it was the loudest and most heartfelt laughter for a while) - lesson: howie needs to remember particular things in his morning routine
i hate when i'm the stupid girl. i have to put air in my car tyres. but i don't know how. mawwwwww....
June 20, 2004
it's strange growing up... the phases that you go through. like at the moment its travel and wedding phase. so many people off on overseas adventures, or soon to be. and so many other people off on marriage adventures, or soon to be. at least i'm not too far behind the times on one count. the other is a fair few years off at the moment.
i found out yesterday one of my ex-boyfriends is engaged. and his sister, who used to be a good friend of mine, is getting married in a couple of weeks. crazy house! it's weird a bit. i guess people drop in and out of your life pretty frequently. but still, it's a bit of a shock to the system.
sometimes its very cold. at the moment i can't feel my toes on one foot. and i even have socks on. thats not good!
i'm glad yesterday is over. still a few loose ends to tie up, and plenty of follow up to do, but i'm glad it's done. although now its a case of looking to the next trip. one in july - statewide; and next regional in september. not sure how thats gonna work since howie and me, and maybe rob, are in greece for most of august. oh well. it'll be interesting. lots of things will be interesting with work this year i feel. but thats ok i guess. just take it as it comes. no use worrying about tomorrow. it'll worry about itself. each day has enuogh trouble of its own. i think thats the biblical thing... lets see... Matt 6:34. i don't know if i totally understand that. ah well.
thats enough from me for the moment.... time to kick back and relax a bit. and get some blood circulating to my toes.
June 19, 2004
done and done. gotta love trips.
and hoorah. half the young people put up their hand to accept Jesus!!! Praise God!
never mind that that only means three young people... that's three more people to share eternity with!!
hoorah...
then time for some emails, blogging and maccas with howie.
June 18, 2004
poor tim & jo
Howie to Steve "you know what you should do, you should run a marriage course for me and Jen"
June 17, 2004
i love tim's family - they're awesome. so funny. i went over tonight, to see tim, but also to get him to hacksaw and file some pvc piping for me. i also brought my dinner with me (which i'd dropped on the driveway as i was leaving my house dammit). so the whole fam was still at the dinner table, having finished their own dinner and dessert, chatting and so on. i was invited to sit down and eat my dinner (leftover lasagne that my mum yelled at me to eat and i forgot, so i had to take it with me or i would have got decked by her). so i did. and they were talking about lots of funny things - like the new fire tools mr mcinnes got for his birthday, and how he could use them in phoenix (mr and mrs mcinnes are going to phoenix tomorrow for three weeks). one particular tool would be good for casino chip dragging.
then later downstairs, brad was measuring the room for carpet and using his arm span of 2 metres, to measure the length of the room in mid air. very funny. and inaccurate.
ok, for all of that, i guess you had to be there. but they are a funny family.
and hoorah for timbo, coz he's letting me borrow his car to transport heaps of trip stuff to arcadia. good on you tim.
a few things to talk about
only 2 sleeps to the trip... phoaw!
today i hurt my knee. actually howie hurt my knee. we were fighting, as you do, or we do, and did the same move and cracked our knees on each other. oucho! no bruise as yet, but it's promising.
i don't like who i am when i'm stressed and don't manage myself well. i don't mean to be 'tasky' but i am. and that makes life all the more stressful. i'm glad that people help me through it. it's good to know that there are people who care about me and my sanity. i hope i'm able to return the favour. sometimes i don't think i'm much of a comforter. that's debbie's job. i don't feel much comfortable or effective in that kind of situation.
how fun is losing stuff!! i swear, there are 12 streamer rolls and 20 rolls of sticky tape hiding somewhere in the office! stupid things. i don't often lose stuff. but when i do, i do a good job of it!
i think my head is going to fall off. and at the rate we're going, never mind the whole "forget your head if it wasn't screwed on", i reckon howie's head could fall off and he wouldn't even notice.
so much driving coming my way the next few days - st ives, campbells, hornsby, thornleigh, westleigh, galston, arcadia, hornsby, thornleigh, hornsby, arcadia, galston, hornsby, thornleigh. i'll be seeing so much of the world!
glad petrol dropped to 95.9 over the long weekend! plus with my trusty coles shopper-docket, twas only 91.9!! i save a whole $1.05 when i filled up last time!! bargain!
June 16, 2004
my sister today said "i really like your hair today Jenny. i mean apart from that you look like crap. but your hair's really nice" - awesome.
a delicate balance between "it's all up to me" and "it has nothing to do with me" ... that's what i feel like i'm a part of.
June 15, 2004
this is the kind of mouse xander was "playing" with this morning. isn't it cute! poor thing.
and no, that's not the actual mouse, and no way is that my hand holding it!
sometimes life just sucks.
it doesn't really, but i don't manage myself well and things become too huge and emotional and stressful. and that sucks. and it makes everything else suck too. so life doesn't suck. i just suck.
blerk.
what a bunch of girls
my cat brought in a mouse this morning (for the first time ever! he's turning into a real cat, awww). but me and my mum went mental - my first reaction was to pick up xander and take him away so he didn't hurt the poor thing. my mum's first reaction was to say good cat and let him go back to the mouse. then our second reaction was "eeeek, it's a mouse!" as xander brought it further up the hallway towards our bedrooms! i jumped on my couch. mum yelled at xander to take it outside. soon enough he did, and then we closed the door on him, so he couldn't get back in with it. oh, so much excitement for the morning.
June 14, 2004
sometimes i just look at people, having no idea who they are, where they're going to or coming from, what their life is like, what they do, but wondering. and then thinking about how sometimes i'm sure this isn't how life is meant to be. every single person run off their feet, for whatever purpose. with barely the time to eat or sleep, let alone spend time with people and grow in relationship. doing this, that and the other as a means to an end, and in most cases, the end being frivolous. i think it's one of those days. one of those days when everything has a slightly negative, critical or cynical tinge. i don't like those days. they make me feel far away from reality. far away from God's reality. but i still think that people are too busy, doing too many things to please whoever they are trying to please.
June 13, 2004
post #3
one morning this week, i was driving to work as usual, past Barker, and there was a bit of a hold up coz of the new developments going up. i thought that was fair enough. there was probably some mega truck trying to get in or out of the driveway. so i waited there patiently in the line for about 3 minutes. then the "slow/stop" sign man indicated we could go slow now. i had a chuckle to myself about him with ciggie in hand spinning the sign. then it seemed, as i drove past the action, that the whole slow/stop experience was initiated, not by some mega truck, but by all the boys on the site getting their hot sausage rolls from the sausgae roll truck. awesome. good to see their using their time well!
post #2
when we were at foodcourt the other day, for official foodcourt thursday, there was a mum nearby with another mum. both with little kids. one of the little kids was rather vocal - screaming and squealing all over the shop. well, you get that. anyways this other pair of ladies walked past them, having finished their own lunch, and one of them started telling off one of the mum's for having a squealey baby, "how am i meant to eat my lunch in peace when your kid won't stop squealing" etc. i thought, my that's a bit rude. but then the mum started to retort, and then they both stuck up their fingers at each other. i thought "riiiight". then they parted. but kept spotting each other and raising their fingers. i thought it was rather strange, rude and immature. but funny.
post #1 - at howie's request
See if you can type your name with your:
NOSE: ueennny
ELBOW: jmden n yh
TONGUE jenny
CHIN jen n
FEET jernnyy
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: jenny
BACK OF HAND jenny6
PALM jennmy
MOUSE je4nny
WRIST jn bny6
oh dear i suck bad!
sometimes a great big "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!" is in order...
how freeing.
June 12, 2004
always the way
you go and buy something thats really expensive because it really needs to be bought, and then three days later a huge sale starts and you could have got it for half the price... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
June 11, 2004
June 10, 2004
technologicalness
this is my grandpa's visit of the IBM factory - Poughkeepsie, New York, on November 7th, 1957. He's the one sitting on the right. He was the Assistant Chief Accountant for Qantas Empire Airways, and was checking out IBM computers for use in Qantas operations. Of course, note that the computer is actually behind them!
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEBBIE! Hoorah!
I love present-giving. But then i get a bit disappointed when the present receiving experience isn't as exciting as the present giving. Giving pressies is so much fun! Especially if the presents are awesome. Not that my presents are always awesome, more so they aren't. But my Deb presents were awesome. Although she's not the best present receiver in the world, it remained enjoyable for all concerned.
PS. Deb said to say thankyou to you Tom.
And PPS. It worked in our DVD player... phew!
June 09, 2004
and then we didn't even have bible study coz only lib and tamara turned up, so it wasn't worth starting the background on acts if no one was there. we had a bonding session instead. we talked about ministry, and a bit about gifts, and then heaps of other random stuff. it was lots of fun. those girls can talk! "bless their cotton socks" (as a good friend of mine would say).
so hoorah, it's almost bed time. how exciting is bed time!! how exciting is sleep! i think it's one of my most favourite things!
it nice to get positive feedback that encourages you - especially when it's God related. reassuring i guess.
meanwhile, trying to keep focussed on God in all work stuff. I'm determined to keep giving it to Him, coz i don't want to be overwhelmed by it, and all focussed on myself. and all woe is me. God knows what we need, when we need it, and all the other where, how, who, why. and that is indeed a good thing. silly me for not thinking He can handle it - coz He always can! it's just me that can't!!
now i don't presume to be an expert in toilet etiquette, but i'm pretty sure that taking a walkie talkie into the bathroom with you isn't the most polite thing. funny though.
June 08, 2004
sometimes we're very silly at work. like during our lunch break we were trying to think of good cafe industrious activities. and we got very silly and weird. and started playing silly games, like see-if-you-catch-jenny's-finger-in-the-answering-machine, and throwing the freddo toy, and the like. silly people. then i had to drive howie home to change his pants. he'd spilled oil on himself when we were changing the oil at the cafe. and looked like he'd wet himself.
June 07, 2004
funny funny
my sister found this site when looking up science projects for primary school kids... i recommend Hair Force One and Jail Louse Rock.
June 06, 2004
:(
an old friend of mine just called me to check up on how some fundraising i'm involved with is going. and i spoke with him a while about how good it was for him to be so supportive and helpful. then he explained why he hasn't been around for a while. he's been admitted into a psych ward of a local hospital. half of me is surprised. the other half isn't. so we talked for a while more about how he was finding that (very boring), about why he's in there, about the helpful sides of it, and about God's place in it. it's quite sad. he doesn't think he should be in there. but he is glad it means he's eating properly and taking his medication at the right times. he sounded very together over the phone. i guess that might make it hard to, because he feels well. he says that he feels normal, but being stuck in there, "imprisoned", makes him feel sometimes like he isn't normal. hmmmmmm.....
sneaky
i just went and purchased debbie's 21st present - well two-thirds of it, the two thirds that tim's involved in. tom will be in charge of the other third. see, her birthday isn't til thursday so i just figured i'd see what everyone else gave her last night, and then formulate my own present idea. it worked for me, quite well indeed.
i'm not quite sure what to write about. last night was alot of fun - i'm sure deb had an awesome time. phew. funny was the amount of time tim and howie spent together. i almost felt a bit of a third wheel when i'd join their convos. oh dear.
i decided i hate video cameras - it's too much pressure to make sure that the end product is something worthwhile. i'm generally too scared and shy to go up to people, so most of it is crowd shots, and hilarity with people i know really well. but i think deb liked it ok. despite almost the whole thing being in 0 Lux coz we were outside. she doesn't know anything about the big surprise yet, so it's all good. but yeh, it was a good night with lots of laughs, good conversations, fun, delightful speeches, wood fires (oh yeh!) and food. So good on debbie turning 21.
June 05, 2004
it will be the year of 21sts
well this year, and next year are the years of 21sts. and tonight is my sister's 21st. jeepers that snuck up quickly! we'll having about 100 peoples in our tiny house and backyard. so that should be interesting and cosy. but hopefully it's a lot of fun, and debs has an awesome night. so much yummy food too. hoorah mumma. i do like debbie very much. all 21 years of her. i'm glad she's my sister. good on her.
don't you just love it when you give a talk about important God and living in this world stuff, to a bunch of teenagers, and whilst you talk, you feel like it's all falling flat on it's face. I felt like that last night as i talked with the GAP guys about relationships - friendships, flirting, "dating" and focus. it felt, to me, really quite dead in the room. i thought i spoke to long, that none of the words i was saying connected with the young people. even as i spoke i was aware of this and prayed to God that He would be speaking to them. i prayed they wouldn't hear me, but only the stuff that God was wanting to speak into their hearts.
And God is faithful. His word doesn't return to Him empty. after the talky stuff, a number of the kids (and leaders) came up to me to say how much the talk had resonated with them. particularly these two guys - one who said he thought i was talking directly at him the whole night. and the other who shared a difficult situation in his life with me. so i'm glad that God knows what He's doing, and that He uses broken, unclean vessels like me in ways that we don't expect. i thought they were all bored (i'm sure some of them were) but really they were listening intently. and thats exciting.
June 04, 2004
athens 04
ok, so now i'm probably joining howie in going to athens. how did that happen? i'm not quite sure. but sometimes i think that God must be a little crazy. why on earth would be want to be using us here on earth? crazy. but hey. i hate flying. i don't like being stretched out of my comfort zone. i don't like foreign countries. i don't like festivals much. i don't like exotic food. i don't like the Olympics. i don't like being away from home for long times. so why was i going again?
bring it on!
do you think the flame is trying to spell out something? my guess is either AFL or NFL. i don't know why.
impatience
maybe it's a bad thing that i'm only particularly conscious of keeping to the speed limit when i know there are cops around, or the distinct possibility of cops being around. i think that's bad.
June 03, 2004
entry no.401
i don't believe in hairdressers... maybe i should.
i think though that the combined effort of me, debs and mum does the job fine! hoorah for haircuts!
"She admitted winning Miss Universe had not been her dream" - all those poor girls whose dream it was!
