pick one : jenny/jenga/jentle/jengi/itchy/jk

i was thinking today. not in itself unusual. but i was thinking about how sometimes i'll be really scared or anxious about something and then whatever it is will happen and i'll be ok and think something like 'yeh that was alright after all'. and i'll have gained some confidence or feel some new level of braveness. then i'll hear some little comment or story to come out of it that undermines that whole experience and new found confidence and reduces it all back to that initial fear or stress or whatever. it doesn't happen frequently, but it happens, and it tends to happen in the bigger things. i was just thinking.