i'm going to SNT tonight. i don't think i've been since before Athens. which means since July. that's a long time. i'm quite the scared. such a different group of people. people i don't really know. and that scares me. i don't know quite why. maybe coz i have nothing to say or contribute? or i don't feel cool enough? or i lack confidence? or i worry too much about what others think of me? or just coz i'm nervous normally? i don't know. i am glad for people like luke, lachie, debbie, and tim though. i know them. i like them.
and i don't like to think that people might think i'm just being snobby or something. i'm not. i'm just scared! but God doesn't give me a spirit of timidity, but of power, of love and of self-discipline.
(i don't know if i've already written similar stuff recently)