i'm not quite sure how i'm feeling at the moment. church tonight was good. the worship was awesome... i love singing old school songs, and re-living significant moments that involved those songs... like tonight took me back to kyckstart, where i actually became a Jesus follower. so that was exciting! and made me heaps joyful. the sermon was on 'hope'. confident assurance rather than the "i wish" kind of hope. that was exciting thinking about what it will be like when Jesus returns. part of me was very excited, like a little kid on Christmas Eve, but another part was sad for the people i know that will find despair that day. i thought of the people i met in greece. i thought of the young people at work. i thought about what am i doing to make an eternal difference, and i found myself wondering what others in my church are doing to make an eternal difference.
anyway, i was then on supper with matt. not something i would have chosen to do on my first sunday back. but i think it was good for me. people who actually wanted to see me, they had to make an effort. so that was special. it was a bit hard though to convey my thoughts in words to "how was it?". i knew it would be hard. but it really was. and i felt a little discouraged that more questions were directed at the olympic games and did i see any events, than what God was doing over there. so that left me feeling a little empty. but it also made me a bit "homesick" for the community we had during the Pilgrimage - particularly of my festival group. i'm glad i had prepared myself for that though. the thought of international conference excites me coz i get to see all these people again (well lots of them).
it's hard not having anyone around who's been where i've been. but then i remind myself, well Jesus was there. and He has a much huger picture of what went on. and that's comforting and reassuring. so i have hope. because i know He's doing stuff, and how i feel at this moment doesn't really matter. coz God's bigger than that!
Category: Ummmm.....See you at conference then! Althoug I think I'll only be there till the Sunday and then have to come back to work! But I'll be in Poatina the week before for some "in-service training"
Posted by: Fi at August 30, 2004 11:02 AM