August 29, 2004
me & nat
i love this photo of my gorgeous cousin Natalie with me. our family is a funny thing. i would say we're all pretty close for an extended family, although it's only the usual two or three get-togethers a year. it's good having lots of weddings and 21st though at the moment, coz we all get to see each other lots. and what's more fun is that i found out while i was away that my cousin Melinda is pregnant! hoorah. that's very exciting, and a huge smile for our family.
it was interesting when away how, maybe coz of exhaustion, or outside normal networks, emotions felt a lot closer to the surface. i'm not normally a very cry-ey person, and i wasn't over in greece either, but i was on the verge a lot more than normal. i had a moment in the bus next to ben when a group of people a bit behind us we're talking about how they'd like to die. that struck a nerve with me, and i asked ben and kaia to ask them to stop talking about it - it was pretty insensitive to the people around them i thought ... particularly when someone mentioned falling. and i had a moment where i couldn't hold tears back anymore. and that sucked. ben asked if i was ok, and i was "fine". it's funny how when you're on the verge of crying, someone asking if you're ok makes things worse! but i composed myself and it was all ok. but i think normally that wouldn't have affected me. so it was interesting to reflect on that a bit.
Posted by jenny at August 29, 2004 04:33 PM
I often find being tired gets things closer to the surface - although, being in the thick of work with God can do it too - just more sensitive to what's important :)
Nice photo too :)
Posted by: Steve at August 29, 2004 08:08 PMhey their jenny, its natty here (whats with the photo it freaked me out hehehe). a friend at uni told me about this website through the howie one and said she saw a photo of me and i didn't beleive her. Did the falling get to you cos of Darren, i get like that still too. So excited about mel but then at the same time really sad that it's not with darren.
It's incredibly normal to be on the edge sometimes, happened to me last night and i couldn't even pin point what made me sad, just an emotional day i guess.
that is crazy! hi nat!! howie has got a big head now because we were just talking about how good his blog was. who's your friend? how do they know howie?
anyway... great to hear from you!! yeh - i'm not normally all that affected by darren stuff. it still rises sometimes, but yeh. i do get your point.
i'll email you!
love you heaps!!