church was good tonight. i was feeling a little ill at the start, and my left leg was trembling a lot, which was strange. i also felt a little lightheaded, so blasting out the worship songs wasn't a go-er. but i enjoyed singing quietly to God. jenny dawson gave a short presentation of her time in uganda. it was very profound. i almost cried. neil's sermon challenged me. it brought up the same passage from youth training the other week - 1 thessalonians 2:1-12. but particularly verse 8...
"We loved you so much that we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well, because you had become so dear to us."
i'm not someone to share much of my life with another person. i keep people at a 'safe' distance - safe enough that i won't be risking myself getting hurt too bad. people probably don't even realise that. i don't know if it surprises you. and i guess i need to be letting people in? to be sharing my life with others. and it's easy to say that, but i don't know if i'll get any closer to doing it. there are people who are dear to me, and have become dear to me, but i still don't let them too far in. it's much nicer to keep my internal world very much internal.
it would seem to me that be open and talking "real" stuff on your blog is letting people into your world!
Posted by: Fi at August 2, 2004 03:49 PMi notice... :) but that's just who jenny is...
Posted by: junior at August 2, 2004 07:39 PM