...those are some top moments. had one of those times today. driving to work i got a huge sense of overwhelm-ment. not necessarily because of anything in particular, but mostly directed at the hugeness of this year i think. i guess too mainly to do with work. as well coz we have staffing issues with work - not enough people available to work. so i got a bit stressed. i tried to give it to God, telling him i didn't know what to do and that it's all too big and i don't want to do it. i was pretty honest with him. then i felt a bit more at peace with it all. til i got to work, and the problems got a little more complicated. then i felt like i was gonna cry for about an hour. howie said it'd be funny if i did. but i don't like crying, so i didn't. after a little while though, i decided it will all be ok. and that i won't think too much about it all. and that God indeed does know what he's doing, even though i don't know what his big scheme of figuring outness is. so now, i just sit and wait and watch what will unfold. and in the meantime, fill in the gaps with myself where i can.
and then i walked into one of the computer monitors on the floor in the middle of the office, and that bruised my leg. owww.