the word that captures it is 'shock'. one of my sister's high school friends, Kathryn, died yesterday of a heart attack. she would have been 20, or maybe 21. how insane is that! unbelievable. so, understandably, everyone is in shock and disbelief. i can't imagine what her family is going through. it must have been a pre-existing condition, coz you don't just die of a heart attack when you're 20. so, my sis and her friends from school are spending today together. i didn't really know Kathryn, so it hasn't hit me in a big way. i feel so sorry for her family and friends though. and i pray for them. coz that's all i can do. i'm not sure where she was at with God, and moments like these see people taking stock of their lives. i pray God uses this to bring people to Himself. that He will be glorified in some way through this.
baby phoebe went into surgery about an hour ago to remove her tumour. it's supposed to be about a 2.5 hour operation. again, leaving her in God's capable and loving hands.
and my great aunt had a heart attack the other day - but she's fine. had a little balloon-ey thing put in her artery to keep it open so blood flows - i can't remember what it's called. she thought she had indigestion. my great uncle knew better. so she's out of hospital today.
all these things going on. it's all that kinda stuff that happens to 'other' people. I just remembered too it was the anniversary of Darren's death the other day too. that's sad. i miss him. i don't understand how he can't just be here. why he had to go away, and why it had to be like that. hmmmm... there's a lot of things i don't understand. but i do miss him.